Long day at the Salon...

Well today I had to work all day! Saturday just know hairstylist bust our butts miss out on family time Saturdays to do your hair. Tip well please... I didnt want to go I wanted to hangout with my kids and do Easter fun stuff, buy money calls. Im glad I did I had 4 new clients and made each one love there hair! Im so blessed to be able to create a look and feeling for complete strangers that make them feel good about themselves, its a amazing blessing. My kids had to be dropped off at 2pm so Pops could go work a second job. This is a 10, 7 and 2 year old boys mind you! I was fearing the worst, but honestly they did great and let me do my thing. Thank god! I came home to a dirty house, muddy dogs and a shit ton of laundry! Not what I wanted after a 8 hour day, but hey what can you do? I made this place shine bright like a diamond. I also allowed my 2 year old to run around in the front yard in his diaper and socks and roll in the mud! He loved every second and I sat on the porch smiling like I have never smiled! He is so funny and happy to explore life. Who cares a little dirt dont hurt! I got him cleaned up ate dinner and off to sleepy town! Tomorrow is Easter Sunday and this year I decided not to buy my children eggs, candy baskets etc. They are spoiled rotten and need to realize this year and every year is about Jesus Christ! Not candy.... We will head to Richies family and do the egg hunt, but I have a book about the Easter Story and tomorrow morning we will read about the true meaning of this amazing holiday! Family and LOVE nothing gets better than that. I have been through more than most hard times. People say I have no luck and bad things follow me, but Im starting to realize I can do nothing but keep smiling have a positive attitude and be thankful Im alive. Stress and crying worrying about others does no good, focus on the moment what you can change and what you just have to surrender and accept! I surrendered to God after my serious car accident 3 months ago I almost died! I should have buried, but instead Im here alive to see my children able to stand on my feet and work no doubt $150K in debt, but Im alive!

Im random and I have alot going on but its me my life and it makes me a strong person that gravitates toward positive up lifting people.

Health issues since the accident I fractured my frontal sinus cavity and eye socket. The hospital sent me home after 4 hours because the realized I had no health insurance! BULLSHIT, but like I said its done. I find out next week if these random symptoms I am having are a pituitary tumor in my brain! If so the hospital should have preformed surgery within 48-74 hours to repair the fractures and a risk of not doing so are tumors!  Honestly Im concerned but this is non cancerous so I will survive! Just need answers and prayers...

Getting ready to slam my x landlord in court

Wow where to start! I lived in a house for 5 years! Rented no less.. always paid on time no problems till the landlord refused to make repairs! One day I opened my water bill and it was $900 and my gas was $500 Holy Shit! It took him 2 weeks to come see what was going on, and only because I had the city shit the water off at the main! Well a hot water pipe burst under the house and I hired a inspector to examine the house.... Major electrical issue besides the busted pipe! The inspector said get out this house could catch fire any moment... I called renters insurance to cover and got smoke alarms. I had no choice but to stay I could not afford to move or break my lease. I waited for 1 year then finally I decided to google my tenant rights in Texas. I found many ways to handle this guy so I did just that. I sent a repair request certified mail and a copy of the inspection to the landlord. 1 WEEK later I was given a 30 days via email to get out! Haha big mistake in Texas that is considered retaliation. So I started packing my things looking for a new house and file in Court! I got a court date a few days ago and have documents from 2008 when I started paying rent. I have receipts for a stove I purchased because he would not repair the one that was provided under the lease, inspection, city code enforcement  etc etc etc the list goes on for days! Moral to this story keep every receipt for everything you purchase be informed about the laws and your rights cause I never thought I would be dealing with this but I am and I am ready! Im asking $5,000 for damages moving cost etc and I can promise you this is so solid I will be handed a check that day if not I will request a lean be placed on the landlord cause after he served me my 30 day I called the city and they came out fined him thousands and out a hold on the property for sale and rent until it is up to code! Sorry Mr. Shitty Landlord you thought you could save money kick my children and I out on the streets, turn around and rent to someone that didnt know the hidden dangers  behind the walls and get away with it! NO GO... I made sure you dont do this to anyone else JUSTICE


Keep up with my blog so I can let you know what happens Court date is 5-8-13 3pm

Meeting my Birth Mother for the 1st time!

Talk about the most surreal moments of my life! I was overwhelmed with emotion, thoughts and feelings racing through my body and mind. I waited my entire life for this moment I had built up so many different scenarios in my mind. Like a movie I wondered is she rich? Does she look just like me? What if she has cancer? Will she even recognize me? The list goes on... I had my bag packed and my GPS was set, I hugged my MOTHER Nancy and feel to the ground. I wanted to meet this woman so bad but fear set in. Doubt about how this would change my life in a negative way, and how the mother that raised me really felt about me doing this? Was a ripping her heart out, what I being disrespectful and ungrateful? I was so torn my mom Nancy said its OK I want you to know, I want you to find closure and all the answers you have searched for your entire life. She was the most amazing mother ever and I reassured her that she was my mom not this woman that gave birth to me! We hugged and tears poured then she told me to go before I changed my mind. I got in my car headed to Belton Texas 4 hours away from home. To a woman house that I didn't know to set eyes on the woman that gave me life and decided to give me a better life with great people. I can even begin to explain the drive, there are no words to express the feelings, thoughts etc. I started having a anxiety attack when I saw the first sign that said 20 miles till Belton! I texted her when I exited the highway and was only 5 minutes away. I turned into a residential neighborhood the houses were nice, kids were outside playing and I looked to my right and saw the house with the garage door open and over 15 people standing around. I stopped the car shaking in fear and jacked up on excitement! I saw a blonde woman, tall like basketball player tall walking to the car. Her hands were over her face and I could see the river flowing from her eyes. I got out and headed in her direction. She grabbed me and held me so tight, it happened so fast I didn't get a good look at her face. We stood there with strangers watching clapping, crying taking pictures. These were not really strangers they were my birth family, but to me they were strangers. She stopped hugging me and pulled me back wiped her eyes and said your too pretty to be my daughter. Are we sure you are the right one? LOL I took a good look at her and knew 120% this was my blood, we looked just alike. I was passed around to people hugs, story's, pictures etc. It was very weird! I felt alone with strangers, and missed my mother Nancy and my house. I took some of my baby pictures and showed Lisa my birth mother. It got a little easier after everyone left and Lisa and I were alone. We would sit there no words and just stare at each other. I didn't know what to say to her and she didn't know what to say to me. She just kept saying how sorry she was, and I kept trying to explain how much respect I had for her. That I was thankful for the life I had and the parents she chose. I had no complaints.

Will return tomorrow with more. I hope anyone reading this comments or lets me know if this Blog is helpful in anyway.

Holly Moore

Adoption

Here we go this is my very first blog ever... I'm almost 30 years old with three boys. I own a hair salon in Dallas and I want to reach out to anyone that will listen. I was adopted at 3 days old private adoption in 1984. Nancy and Wayne Moore were the lucky ones that picked my crazy ass... I was the only child and it took 1 full year to finalized the adoption. They were so terrified that my birth mother would show up and change her mind in that year they even picked me up from the hospital in my God fathers FBI marked car so if anyone was following they would back off ... Seriously they were paranoid. I was spoiled rotten had a amazing life no complaints. I was always told from day one I was adopted no secret and I think that's the #1 way to go. My earliest memory was on the play ground and I was bragging about being adopted and a mean kid said ha ha your parents didn't want you! They gave you away! i remember crying so hard and being devastated. i went home that night and told my mother, she looked at me and said Holly "you were chosen!" We picked up out of thousands of children, that kid that said that was born and his parents had no choice! his parents were stuck with him! Ha ha I honestly felt so much pride at that moment like I was beyond special. That's how awesome my parents were and from that day on my adoption was who I was. Everyone knew it was the first thing out of mouth... Hello I'm Holly and I'm adopted! PRIDE! Everything you go through in life good or bad makes you who you are, be proud. I'm a firm believer in being open honest and people either accept it or they don't. I grew up made big mistakes even though i was spoiled my parents taught me right from wrong and made me figure out how to repair my own mistakes. I was 2 weeks into my driver license and hit a car with a older couple the woman had a heart attack and was hauled off in a ambulance! I felt horrible called my dad and he flipped out, the cops were laughing cause I didn't even have my hard license yet, just the paper! So my dad made me get my 1st job waiting tables and I did. Every night after work I had to give him 100% of my tips till I could pay for the repairs to my car. I drove around with one eyed willy for 6 months, but it taught me alot about life! I love those people more than myself! I'm bawling now, but that's next...... years go by I have a child at 18 get married and divorced. I meet a great guy and he loves my child like he is his own. We have a boy together and one day I got a phone call from a woman named Brandy. She flat out asks are you adopted? my heart sank who are you and how do you know this? She says I have reason to believe your my neighbors birth daughter! I sat there in complete disbelief not sure what to say or how to act. My body was shaking and my mind was racing. I answered her yes I am. All I know is that I was private adoption in Mesquite Texas and I was a emergency c-section that's it! She asked did your birth parents buy your birth mother a car? I said not that I know of... Step backwards my whole life my curiosity was insane I always bugged my parents about details cause one day I needed to know where I came from. So at 14 I decided to sign up for a website adoption.com and you filled out a profile. This woman Brandy found it 9 years later and hunted me down! Brandy asked about a two toned brown Pontiac left in a parking lot off town east blvd at service merchandise in mesquite Texas! I had never heard that story so my guard came up and said no I think you have the wrong person! she asked if I could ask my birth mother and I said yeah she is right here hold on! I looked at Nancy my mother and asked, her faced turned white and she said who the hell are you talking to? We both sat in silence I said this woman says she knows my birth mother! My mom took off to her room crying and slammed the door. I told Brandy I would call her back soon. I hung up the phone sat there not sure if I should go after my mom and press the issue or wait. My mind was all over the place. Part of me felt like i was disappointing the mother that wanted me, the mother that loved me, took me everywhere, put up with my drama, hugged me every night no matter how bad i was, then the other part needed to know. I wanted to know where I came from, why, who I look like, did I have brothers and sisters? About that time my mom walked out with tears pouring down her face and said are you sure you want to open Pandora's box? I said yes I think I am. She said well yes we bought her a old brown two toned brown Pontiac left it in the parking lot off town east, with $1,500 cash in the glove box! Holy shit I jumped up and down excited this is the moment I waited for my entire life! I was about to find out my history etc. I jumped on the phone called Brandy back and said YES YES YES I'm her birth daughter! She said OK great let me call me and let her know and I will call you back. I sat there and bawled called all my life long friends that knew I was adopted and told them get over here I need someone to help me through this! Hours went by and my phone didn't ring, but my friends showed up one by one. They were hugging me and we were talking about what could happen next! Role playing what the current situation could be and why I was given up for adoption. I then called the number back and Brandy answered I asked her well whats going on? She said your birth mother is too scared to call I gave her your number, but she doesn't know what to say to you. I told Brandy I have waited my entire life to know so give me her number and I will call. I picked up the phone dialed the number with a complete audience of friends on speaker! a woman answered and said Hello I said Hello? The second I heard her voice I melted we were both crying for over 5 minutes, neither one of us could say a complete word just tears, heavy breathing and fin ally she said I'm sorry! Im so sorry please don't hate me please! My first reaction was WHAT? Why would I hate you, she said cause I gave you away! I told her I had a amazing life went skiing at 4, Camen Islands at 2 only child spoiled rotten my life was perfect! Don't be sorry you did the right thing! I have never had hate towards you only love and understanding after having my own children I know how hard it is. She told me about my sisters one older and one younger she kept them both but gave me up!


OK enough for tonight... Will post more tomorrow. Please remember this is my first blog don't have a clue what I'm doing just simply sharing my story to those who are willing to listen.